::PREGNANCY:: Thoughts

Right after my pee break in the wee hours one night, I was having trouble getting back to sleep and amidst the tosses and turns and feeling a slight crampishy ache in the tummy, I thought it would be a good date to birth that day. 6.9.2012. These days, I have gotten used to the crappy aches/tugs/pulls of sorts I have all over the belly/groin/pelvic area, which acts up if there is any sudden change body movements, that if the real contractions do come, I think I might just put it off as just another ache. Even build-up of poops causes an ache in the rectum. 

After visiting the delivery suite and seeing how 'ergonomically' designed the birthing chair was, I decided I had to do some thigh stretches to prepare the thighs for some *er hemz* 'spreading 'when the day comes for them to do their job. Hence I have been feeling some sort of aches in the pelvic-thigh area and I groaned to the hubby that my pelvic joints were loosening and they hurt. He reminded me that it was probably muscle aches from the butterfly stretches. And guess what? I still cant tell for sure. This week, I also feel an extra pressure on the groin area which I suspect is D nesting his head comfortably against his new-found pillow (that's one more ache somewhere inside there).

With all the extra weight pulling me down and the added discomforts going on inside me, it would really be a great relief to pop! But as eager as I am to get him out of his comfortable nest, I really just have one problem.  

I cant seem to get this image out of my mind

I am secretly glad that I will be on the other side of the view, but I can't help but feel very conscious about the anatomy that's going to happen there. I wonder if N would still like to participate actively in the birth of his son, OR do the other job of a scratch/pinch/grab pole. ;p

But we have already come this far and all that's left to do is to birth him out.

It's between the image above + a cut in the natural birthing part or a cut through the many layers of the belly. 

Not much of a choice, right?

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That aside, I really do wish somebody can tell me now what my labour sign will be like. Because anticipation of the unknown is killing me. Every time I go take a pee, I try to look out for that mucus plug or that bloody show. Every night when I get jolted up from sleep, I feel the bed for signs of water bag bursting. And every other sudden ache or false contraction in my body makes me pause and think if that was it.

So everyday I pray that Someone up there give me an obvious sign so I know when to send myself to the hospital.